Friday, December 02, 2016

Once

Once there was a little girl. She was optimistic. She had hopes and dreams. She thought she was a good person. She believed other people were good as well.

Just three years ago this girl had everything she ever wanted in life. She didn't realize how lucky she was. She was tormented by her mental illness and lived every perfect day in pain she couldn't figure out how to get rid of.

Because of this mental illness this girl no longer exists. She is a woman. She is 32 and a single mom of four.  She lived through hell as a child and now faces hell as an adult.

Every morning when she opens her eyes she wishes she was dead. She is pessimistic. She doesn't believe she is a good person. She doesn't believe anyone will ever love her unconditionally. She lives with such unbearable pain that suicide is on her mind constantly. She doesn't want to hurt anyone else in her life she just doesn't want to be in pain anymore. 

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