I'm kind of sick of blogs. I used to care. What happened to that person and that one's baby and blah blah blah. But I am just sick of hearing about people who have awesome families whine. Oh waaah I only have two parents who visit me and watch the baby so I can poop. Oh woe is the Bitch whose sister gets to spend all summer with her to take care of ONE BRAND NEW BABY. I would give a toe to have a sister. Or a cousin. Or anyone to care about me.
People wonder why I complain and why I am such a bitch. Its because I HAVE NO ONE BUT MYSELF. LITERALLY. My husband doesn't want to renew our vows because of money. He would rather me go to school. Which logically, I agree with. Emotionally, it feels like he doesn't love me. He doesn't want to marry me. He doesn't want to have sex with me. Like every. I have a high sex drive so this is a problem.
My best friend treated me like shit at her wedding. And at her house. My mom is a bald drug addict. None of my Washington friend's can hang out because THEY ARE OFF DOING THINGS WITH THEIR FAMILIES.
Can someone adopt me? I want a family. I want someone to care about me. I want someone to be silly and laugh and joke and cook with.
I am literally crying. I want somebody. Anybody.
If people who have tons of support can't figure out how to be grown ups, how the hell am I supposed to figure this out with no one but a couple of babies?