It is 11pm and I am dead asleep in the middle of my bed. Husband is downstairs working. The babies are in their beds. When Gamma starts grunting. And moaning. Then crying. I groggily get up and step over to his crib. He gives me a huge gummy grin when he sees my face. I pick him up and hold him. I place my cheek next to his and rub his peach like head. I smell his baby smell and bring him back to bed with me.
I lay on my side and nurse him. The room is silent except for his swallows. I hug him close and beg for him to sleep. How is he already five months? How did it go by so fast? My perfect little boy is growing oh so fast.
I feel his perfectly smooth bald spot on the back of his head where he lays and hope he wont grow up too fast.